I would like to take the opportunity to thank the people who stood by my side giving me support and encouragement and love.

I went through a lot of changes and emotions over this time, and my brother-in-law Dan who was staying with me at the time, really helped me  by caring for my two children.  I knew I could go and be with my father, and I didn't have to worry about them. I knew they would be okay. 

My good friend Nikki, who stopped at the hospital every night after work to bring me home, thank you for lending me your ear and your shoulder, you helped to keep my thoughts focused on the situation.

Kelly and Sean, what can I say.  God sent you from heaven to be with me not only on that day, but every day. I am blessed to have you as my Dearest Friends.  If it were not for your love and strength, I would not have made it down the hall way.  There was no other thought in my head, but to call you when they told me that Dad had passed away. 

My mother-in-law Linda, came with me for the final viewing.  She knew I had to see him and say good bye, and she grabbed me up by the arm held me tight and walked me around to the coffin.  I didn't think she had that strength in her.  Thank you for helping me do that with dignity and for the final thought that out of every one in the family, I got to spend the most time with him.  I was the one to see him at the end, and spend this time with him.

 I had to make a lot of decisions for my father in the end.  Even though he was saying "do what you can to keep me with you" As things progressed and got worse with Dad's health, and with the information I had received from the Doctors.  I knew it wasn't the right thing to do. Telling the staff to stop with the feeding tube, and then to stop all his diabetic medication, and just make him comfortable was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. 

I hope I am never in the situation again.  I do wonder if I made the right decisions at the right time for him, and with the support of my family who never made a decision for me, but helped me understand, that the choices I was making, were the best for Dad.

I thank you.

Mom thank you for helping me put this page together, your heart is in this page as deep as my own.

I Love You

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